I've overcome a lot of my anxiety issues from the past, learning to embrace the gift of caring and being sensitive to the energies within and around me. It's allowed me to lead countless meditations and participate in innumerable sharing circles.
Then many months ago, my spiritual mentor, Lizanne Leclair, was being interviewed for her spiritual work. She helped me become the person I am today, so I found myself volunteering to be interviewed on camera to speak about how much she helped me and so many others. In that moment, I realized it was more important to speak the truth and pay tribute to her than worry about whatever fears I had about being on camera. It was a big accomplishment for me, but I didn't think much about the possibility of recording meditations or anything like that.
With the virus shutting down much of the outside world a couple of weeks ago though, I started thinking of posting videos online. I heard a friend had her own youtube channel and she explained how easy it was to set up. So, I was considering it. Then, I was asked by Suzanne Leclair at the main library if I'd be interested in offering daily online meditations. I knew right away that was all the confirmations I needed.
So for the last ten days or so, I've been recording meditations and sending them to the library to post online in the hopes of helping others in the community relax at this challenging time. It took a lot for me to start posting those on my website and youtube channel. I knew it was what I needed to do though to reach more people since so many are at home right now. So, I've been getting more comfortable posting those videos. In the majority of them, I set up the camera to focus on candles or angels as the background while viewers could only hear my voice. I felt more comfortable like that and believed most people would be able to focus more with the beautiful background.
Anyway, I wasn't promoting the videos too much on my social sights since it was all new to me and I wanted to get comfortable with being recorded before I told many people about it. Then, the other day, I heard that Awakening Energy, which hosts the Holistic Healing Fairs I've offered my services at in the past, was starting to do live virtual fairs. Even though I hadn't taken part in any live recordings of myself, I instantly jumped at the opportunity knowing it would be another great way to reach people and let them know I could be of service. So, I voluntarily offered to be interviewed live. It was another hugs step for me. The night before, I was asked if I'd be interested in leading a meditation to close the show. I was blessed to be asked. It was a great opportunity for me to showcase what I can do, and help a lot of people at the same time. The site has more than 25,000 followers, so I knew lot's of people would be watching.
Understandably, the night before and morning of the interview, I was a little nervous. Even so, I kept focusing on the love energy that has gotten me to this point and I thought about all the people I could reach and who'd benefit from what I'd offer. It was a good example of being a leader. It's one thing to talk about facing and replacing your fears with love, and another thing to live what you preach. It's all about leading by example; transmuting everything to love; accepting what is without judgment and bringing it all up to the light. Even though I had a few fearful thoughts just before, I accepted them and replaced them as much as I could with calming and healing energy. I gave myself Reiki and Shamballa healing energy leading up to going live.
Obviously, it worked. I know it works. That's why I offer all the healing tools I do. they helped me to stay calm and to sit there and speak proudly and with confidence about how I'm willing to help people any way I can. I didn't plan anything ahead of time, as I've learned to live in the moment and trust what comes to me. So, I let things unfold naturally trusting it would go perfectly according to the divine plan. Whatever people needed to hear and whatever I needed to say would be heard and said for the highest good of all involved. I ended up bringing up my first spiritual teacher, Caroline McIntosh., explaining how much she helped me and how grateful I am and how proud I am to be carrying on her legacy. Then, I led everyone through a meditation and I felt like it went really well. I was happy with how it turned out and proud that I faced my fears again and got stronger and more confident because of it. I served as the example, and now I have another story to tell you about how miracles happen every day. It's a miracle I am where I am today. Just the fact I can do anything in public is a testament to that, and I have Carline to thank for helping me get here.
After the show, the host mentioned to me how grateful she was to me for bringing Caroline's name up, since she had also helped her in the past. It made my day to hear that. She even said when she sees me, she thinks of her. It was so humbling to hear that. I know Caroline would be so proud of her and I for where we are today. It's what fuels me to do this work. I know others in the future are counting on me to complete my missions and follow my path so that I can help them on their path, just like Caroline did for me. It's all about stepping up and being all we are called to be, and helping others to see how much they already are and what they're capable of. I'm eternally grateful to Caroline for helping me find myself, and to Lizanne for helping me blossom, spread my spiritual wings and fly. Now I'm here to remind you that you have wings too and can fly free towards making your dreams come true.
There are so many beautiful messages that came from that whole situation. You're all stronger than you realize. You have unlimited potential within you. You can all overcome your greatest fears and challenges; in fact they will help you to make you stronger and more resilient, yet more loving; more of who you really are; love in action. Miracles can and do happen. I'm living proof. If they can happen for me, they can and will happen for you. Just be ready to step up when the opportunity presents itself. Find the courage and strength to rise up when you need to. Take one baby step at a time and keep building on them. Keep moving forward, and feel yourself get stronger every time. Before you know it, you'll realize you're invincible and indestructible. You have the Creator's energy within you. You are love. You are light. No matter what happiness in your life, you'll find a way to make it through, and be better off because of it. If you ever reach a point when you're not sure what to do, just ask yourself the magical question to get the perfect answer every time; what would love do? You are love! Do that! :)